God's Garden

Desiring to be married is something I wanted every since I was a child. After God healed me from divorce, I thought ok God I'm ready now. Boy, was I wrong. I kept finding myself in sheets. They were not just sex and lust sheets. I was bound in rejection, insecurity, fear, anxiety, and depression. I had no identity and the enemy kept taking my lunch. It seem like the more I studied the more happened. The More tried the more I was disappointed. The more I gave the more I lost. "I can't do this no more. You can find someone else, I said." I laid there wishing God would just let me die. Isaiah 43:19 For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. My wasteland became my biggest testimony. The place where the enemy tormented me is the area God was glorified in which is my life. Wasteland means an unused area of land that has become barren or overgrown. My life had become barren because I didn't know my identity. I didn't realize it then but divorce made me experience God like I never knew him. God became my everything when I felt like I lost everything. When I though I was worthless God proved I was worth more than I could ever imagine. He not only changed me and created in me purpose. He changed my name to Daughter. What I felt was a wasteland because I wasn't creating fruit of the world because identity sowed in tears and bought by the blood! So chin up my friend know that your wasteland will now become God's garden once you surrender it to him! He will create rivers in dry places just to show you that he loves you and that my friend is enough!